IN. CONTROL.

So out of habit, I like to be in control and have a plan. Well with me about to go into training for massage therapy, I'm finding myself mapping everything out. Where I'd like to work, how I can build clientèle, and x,y,&z. And I've realized that I need to not hold on sooo tightly to my plans, and be willing to let go of them. Last time I was making some hard-core plans, was when I was applying for Moody Bible Institute and went through 7289473298 things to find out if I even got in. I eventually got in, but not to the campus that I planned on. But I got in. Then I was mapping out everything possible. Then what? Money falls through and I was devastated.

But I know that one thing that I learned from that, is to not hold on sooo tightly to my plans and to be willing to let them go in a flash, if that's what God wills. And yes, I didn't get to go to Moody for missions, but the Lord used me where he had me. I started a girls bible study with the most amazing group of girls you'll ever meet and I absolutely adore to pieces. And I was still able to "lead" the youth band (it's more of a group leadership honestly... b/c we're that sweet). And I've grown sooo much throughout the last year in my relationship with Christ. And you know why? Because I was walking through the plan God had for me. Not mine. If I went with my plan, I'd literally be across the country in Washington state.

So, with all that being said, I'm trying to plan plans and not make plans and not be in control and have the Lord be in control. After all, I'm not living my life for me, I'm living for him. So I'm going to try to eliminate some stubbornness and not be in ctrl.